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my grandfather, who passed away on thursday night.
i'm just now kind of starting to accept the fact that he won't be around anymore. but i keep thinking at least he won't be in pain anymore, and he had been so miserable in the hospital for those 2 weeks. so now he is in heaven chilling with jesus too.

's to you Julie. I'm sorry. :/

awh thanks guys

well after loosing my friend scooter last week i have really been thinking bout him and a lot of other friends who have either passed or just fell thru over the years. its weird how life changes so much. well i miss scooter, gabriel, demetrio, and maria ibarra. these are all friends who have passed over the past year.

i also miss my old roommates melissa, nissa, katie, and anna. melissa and nissa were my lesbian mammas and well they kinda had a "lesbian half way house." they took me in when i was kicked out of my folks house when i told them i liked girls. some how we all just kinda fell out after i moved out the house. first it was me, then katie, then mel and niss broke up. now we all lead seperate lives and i just really miss them alot.

tomarrow is the one year anniversary of my moms passing. I dont know how to feel right now. I miss her sooooo much but I know she is better off. But I am in that selfish faze where I want her back even though I know it cannot happen. I am goin to try not to stress tomarrow but I just dont know how I am going to react when tomarrow actually hits.

awh. im sorry too, nicole

so i miss my grandpa. this thanksgiving is the 10th he has missed. the 22nd was the marking of 10 yrs that he has been gone and its just sad to have to go another thanksgiving with out my gramps. i miss him, alot.

My friend Lorenzo, the one I lost to suicide and I hope the only one. Wouldn't be okay losing more than one friend.. still not even okay with losing one.

Other then the happiness I never knew, I miss my buddy Skyler. He committed suicide in 2012 at just a mere 17 yrs old... i didnt go to his funeral because I couldn't emotionally handle it... and I hate myself every day for it. Im going to LA in April and im going to lay next to him and we're going to watch our favorite movie... God I miss that kid... they dont lie when they say the most damaged people have the brightest smiles.

My mom, she was the best friend that I've ever had. I lost her in July, 2006.
My dad, my superhero. He left to join my mother on July 17, 2012.
They were high school sweethearts, true soulmates.

My aunt, who understood so much, without being told & always knew just what to say.

Over 9 years, I've lost 7 family members, as well as 9 friends - 2 of whom were the type of friend that is rarely found & to be treasured forever.

I still miss my friend. I am so mad at him for leaving the way he did >.<